I still keep flashing back to the memory of seeing Claudia thrashing on the street after she’d been hit, and bending over her as she died. It’s a horrible memory but it isn’t sticking to me as much now, or coming back as often.   I told some co-workers that BGE was coming to my house today to install the new smart meters and one of them who didn’t know asked if I had a pet and I said that I used to and I guess something in my voice told her to leave it at that. Then I flashed back for a while but it stopped pretty soon after.   It isn’t cutting me up so much now that I don’t see her coming to greet me, tail held high when I come home.   I’ve pretty much stopped calling her name quietly while standing alone out on my porch at night.

So it goes…