{"id":5995,"date":"2012-07-01T20:16:06","date_gmt":"2012-07-02T01:16:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/?p=5995"},"modified":"2012-07-02T12:14:42","modified_gmt":"2012-07-02T17:14:42","slug":"inks-finished-on-episode-15","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/5995","title":{"rendered":"Inks Finished On Episode 15…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I got the inks finished now on episode 15 of A Coming Out Story<\/em><\/a>. \u00a0 This one has been like pulling teeth. \u00a0 There’s something to be said for not digging up your past. \u00a0 Double for not trying to find your first crush after so long. \u00a0 But I am more determined then ever to get this out of me because I think it’s worthwhile, not just as a personal exercise in exorcising my inner ghosts, but as an accounting of what it was like being a gay teenager in the years after Stonewall, but before the APA decided we weren’t mentally ill anymore.<\/p>\n

There’s something to be said for all that advice out there about not searching for your first crush. \u00a0 But I had to. It’s been since March 2011 that I posted episode 14. There were times I thought I’d never finish this one. When I started this cartoon series I had no idea where the object of my affections in this story was, what his life might be like, or even if he was still alive at all. \u00a0 After the AIDS Quilt was first unveiled in Washington D.C., I used to have nightmares about walking along its rows and finding one with his name there. \u00a0 Every time I restarted the search for him it terrified me to think I was simply going to discover he was dead.<\/p>\n

Then, shortly after I started this little online comic story I found him. \u00a0 And…creatively…my head has been a mess ever since. \u00a0 Somehow in the past couple of weeks I got a head of steam up for it again and I have just zipped through the finishing of the pencils and now the inks. \u00a0 I finished inking this basically in just two days. \u00a0 And my head is still as much a mess as it’s ever been these past six years<\/a>.<\/p>\n

I do not understand that right brain side of me anymore. \u00a0 Not that I ever really did.<\/p>\n

[Edited some…<\/em>]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I got the inks finished now on episode 15 of A Coming Out Story. \u00a0 This one has been like pulling teeth. \u00a0 There’s something to be said for not digging up your past. \u00a0 Double for not trying to find your first crush after so long. \u00a0 But I am more determined then ever […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[56,7],"tags":[25,52,130],"class_list":["post-5995","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-art","category-life","tag-a-coming-out-story","tag-cartooning","tag-lonelyache"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5995","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5995"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5995\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5995"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5995"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5995"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}