{"id":3092,"date":"2009-02-05T19:31:52","date_gmt":"2009-02-06T00:31:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/?p=3092"},"modified":"2009-02-05T19:31:52","modified_gmt":"2009-02-06T00:31:52","slug":"tired-just-tired-of-it-all","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/3092","title":{"rendered":"Tired.  Just Tired Of It All&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I sat down when I came home from work today, and started writing a post about <span class=\"body\">Maureen Mullarkey, the pretentious jackass of a painter slash art critic who painted gay pride parades and was discovered to have donated a thousand dollars to help pass Proposition 8.&nbsp; I have it all pretty well written out in my head just now.&nbsp; I actually started writing it a moment ago.&nbsp; And then I just go tired.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m sick of this fight.&nbsp; Just sick of it.&nbsp; I never wanted my life to be a war zone.&nbsp; I never wanted to be the scapegoat for every cheap character flaw that heterosexuals are ashamed of.&nbsp; I never wanted my hopes and dreams of love to be other people&#8217;s stepping stones to heaven.&nbsp; But this is the world I was born into.<\/p>\n<p>So I&#8217;m sitting here listening to Debussy&#8217;s Reverie, and the world I thought I was going to grow up in, and the life I thought I was going to have, keeps coming back into view from between the notes, keeps floating out there in the melodies&#8230;just out of reach&#8230;and I just can&#8217;t keep on writing my post.&nbsp; I&#8217;m sick of it all.&nbsp; Just sick of it.&nbsp; I think of this monster with a paint brush using our lives to gratify her soulless ego&#8230;selling our lives in her art gallery&#8230;cutting our ring fingers off without compunction while selling her twisted vision of our lives to the highest bidder&#8230;and I just want to walk away from this world.&nbsp; I really do.&nbsp; Except there is nowhere to go.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I sat down when I came home from work today, and started writing a post about Maureen Mullarkey, the pretentious jackass of a painter slash art critic who painted gay pride parades and was discovered to have donated a thousand dollars to help pass Proposition 8.&nbsp; I have it all pretty well written out in [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[18,16,21,90],"class_list":["post-3092","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-gratuitous-anti-gay-hate","tag-marriage","tag-the-abyss","tag-the-human-gutter"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3092","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3092"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3092\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3092"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3092"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3092"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}