{"id":3052,"date":"2009-01-28T21:40:15","date_gmt":"2009-01-29T02:40:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/?p=3052"},"modified":"2009-01-28T21:40:15","modified_gmt":"2009-01-29T02:40:15","slug":"jealousme","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/3052","title":{"rendered":"Jealous&#8230;Me&#8230;?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>So&#8230;I&#8217;m wandering the web and the various gay news sites and I come across this shot of actor TR Knight and his BF doing Disneyland&#8230;<\/p>\n<p align=\"center\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"275\" height=\"246\" alt=\" \" src=\"\/images\/trknight_and_bf-disneyland.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">More <a href=\"http:\/\/justjared.buzznet.com\/gallery\/photos.php?yr=2009&amp;mon=01&amp;evt=knight-disneyland&amp;pic=tr-knight-disneyland-mark-cornelsen-03.jpg\">Here<\/a>.&nbsp; I recall wandering around Disneyworld not too long ago.&nbsp; I had a great time.&nbsp; But I go into these vacations willing myself not to think about how alone I am wherever I go&#8230;which is one reason I&#8217;ve always avoided theme parks.&nbsp; If I don&#8217;t do that, if I&#8217;m not successful at forgetting, then I just want to go back home.&nbsp; And there have been times I&#8217;ve done just that.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I&#8217;m happy for these guys.&nbsp; I really am.&nbsp; But seeing stuff like this&#8230;at this stage of my life&#8230;just reminds me of the life I never had and I don&#8217;t want it to.&nbsp; I just want to feel happy for them.&nbsp; But&#8230;I failed.&nbsp; I never found it.&nbsp; God knows I tried (even if a certain heartless jackass in Alexandria wants to keep telling himself that I never did).&nbsp; I tried.&nbsp; It never happened.&nbsp; It just&#8230;never happened.&nbsp; But then&#8230;people who look like that want people who look like that&#8230;\n<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Wow&#8230;&nbsp; That looks like the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad ride.&nbsp; I wanted to do that one while I was at Disneyworld but I thought, one roller coaster at a time so I did Space Mountain instead.&nbsp; Look at those smiles.&nbsp; Damn.&nbsp; Just&#8230;<em>Damn<\/em>&#8230;\n<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>So&#8230;I&#8217;m wandering the web and the various gay news sites and I come across this shot of actor TR Knight and his BF doing Disneyland&#8230; More Here.&nbsp; I recall wandering around Disneyworld not too long ago.&nbsp; I had a great time.&nbsp; But I go into these vacations willing myself not to think about how alone [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[77],"class_list":["post-3052","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","tag-the-dumpsville-chronicles"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3052","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3052"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3052\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3052"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3052"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3052"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}