I thought I knew what being a solitary was like after all these decades. But I didn\u2019t. I thought I could always handle it. And unfortunately, I can. But I see something I never really appreciated before. And having that significant other, a body and soul connection where our innermost selves feel completely at ease with each other, embraced, loved, seen\u2026grounded\u2026home\u2026would be really good to have now.<\/p>\n
I never found him. I\u2019m an only kid. Maybe that made it easier for me to get used to the inner solitude, even in those times when I tried to escape it and couldn\u2019t. Plus the torrent of abuse gay kids got in the 60s\/70s, to remind me that love was not mine to have. I tried to find him, but as I became a senior citizen I settled in to the void because there was no where else to live (people who look like that want people who look like that…<\/em>) and by then I\u2019d made it comfortable. It was the room of my own I always had ever since I left the cradle, where I could occupy myself with pastimes, where love could have been but never was. I never really grasped how it would feel, when I finally came to this moment, and I saw the void was bigger than I realized without that significant other to keep us both steady.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I thought I knew what being a solitary was like after all these decades. But I didn\u2019t. I thought I could always handle it. And unfortunately, I can. But I see something I never really appreciated before. And having that significant other, a body and soul connection where our innermost selves feel completely at ease […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[130,157,317],"class_list":["post-14316","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life","tag-lonelyache","tag-the-old-man-chronicles","tag-the-single-gay-guy-chronicles"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14316","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14316"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14316\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14321,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14316\/revisions\/14321"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14316"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14316"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/brucegarrett.com\/brucelog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14316"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}